Tuesday, November 3, 2015

been a while...

Dear Diary,
is been a while.
Divorce is final. got the papers back a while ago.
I'm ok. learning to live one day at a time.
Still living under the same roof. i guess most of people here in town can't afford a house like mine.
Oh well. Just kind anxious to leave town and start a new life where friends really are my friends.
See you next time!

Monday, August 31, 2015



Just signed the divorce papers.
Now just have to go to the court and file it!
Almost a single woman again after almost 10 years.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Tuesday, August 18, 2015


Happy Bdayyy to me!!!
They said life begin at 40. Let's make this year amazingly good!

Sunday, August 16, 2015

once a cheater, always a cheater.


Dear Diary,

We still live under the same roof and work at the same place.
is weird, but we have to deal with it.
I'm really hoping we sell the house soon. I just can't wait to end this chapter of my life once for all and start a new one.

Dear Diary,

I don't have any proof of he cheating on me with another person. But we know, our guts tell us when there is something wrong.  We were always really respectful with each other's privacy, he gave me all his passwords but i never felt the necessity of going through his stuff. I always liked my privacy so i gave his because there was trust.

Everything changed maybe 4 -5 months ago when he bought a protection screen so people can't see what's he's been doing on the phone and the gave me the bullshit excuse that is to avoid that one of our annoying co workers stop to see what he was doing on the phone. Suddenly he stopped typing the iphone passcode in frt of me, he changed his password on his apple id and log out of the ipad  that we used to share because of the itunes.

He started to get home later, not answer a phone call and then get up and leave the room to make the call, or get the call and say "what's up man" when i could hear a woman's voice. and stay up texting somebody till 2am almost everynight, and when i asked he would make a big deal.



 Dear Diary,

July 27th, 2015, the day my soon to be ex husband decided to end everything without even giving a try to save it.  I talked about therapy and he refused saying that was too late for us and that was better this way. But i wanna remember that was the day i was forced to grow up again and learn to be on my own again.

You learn more about someone....


Dear Diary,

Found out so many things he was doing without my knowledge, didn't wanna see how he used to bullshit his way around. Found out he refinanced our car so many times that today we owe almost double of what's worth it.

Found out he borrowed money from his mother to pay for our mortgage, now, we combined make pretty good money, just does not make any sense that he had to borrow money to pay for the house. Where did all the money go?

I hate his drug addict daughter. She was always a burden for us, but she was his daughter so i had to deal with her, her drug addict and dealer husband and her 2 kids.

Not every step mother is the evil witch, but in her case, she manipulated everybody so much, stole from us, and still i would suck it up because of him, and in the end to see how much alike they were, just sucks.
Liars and manipulative. She does not have a job and quit every thing she does. She is useless. Junkie.
She was trying to get back to our city begging him to get her old job back, a job that she got fired when she was busted in the drug test. He seems to forget that i was there to pick his parts when she broke his heart. Oh whell, i guess they deserve each other. By the way, she got married less than 4 months ago and is already talking about divorce. Second divorce at 22 years old. This is gonna be his 3rd divorce at 43 years old. Maybe is a family thing.

Life begins at 40



Dear Diary,

My name is Piper, english is not my main language ,but i wanted to make this blog in english so i could learn more. So most of the time i'm gonna be posting quotes that express my feelings.

So i don't know, i just wanna vent,just wanted to write down my experience, my mood, my thoughts of the day, how i am hanging there so in the future i can just look back and see that i survived it. I'm gonna cry what i have to cry and end this chapter of my life and get ready to start a new one in a new city.

My Bday is in 2 days, and i will be 40 years old. Could not imagine i would be separated and almost divorced by 40. Everything happened so fast that my head still spinning.

It's been almost 3 weeks that my marriage of almost 10 years ended, but we still live under the same roof till we sell our house. Only his mother, his best friend and a really dear friend of mine that lives here knows about it. I just didn't wanna keep giving explanations to a bunch of people who just wanna know about it to gossip and laugh behind your back.

Got a lot of friends back in my hometown,  but so far i only told few closest ones about it, my mom's health is not in good condition for her to find out about my divorce yet. 


I think that's it for today.


XOXOXO